Feeling a little down today

I just do not have a good feeling about this deployment. The last time DH went I was scarred and worried every second of the day, yet I knew that he was coming home. This time I have a fear so deep that I cant stand to have him out of my sight when he is at home. I have to call him way to many times during that day. I try, oh how I try to not think about the WHAT IF's, but it is always there. Now that L wont be here I dont want to either but have to. I dont know how I am going to get through this with out her. We dont live on post and the few people around us are not military. Selling our home, oh now I wish we would have stayed on post. I know when the time comes for DH to leave the kids and I will get through it all once again we always do. Even with the price we pay we have come out okay.

I just wish this uneasy feeling would go away!!